I had a weekend of sadness. I read, like so many of us did, a lot about the shooting in Connecticut. I am so sad about the loss of so many individuals, many of them children. My first thoughts are directed toward my own child, Jackson. How can I protect him from all the evils of the world? How can I make sure he is always safe? I guess that answer is going to be, you can't. I can't always be there to protect him and make sure he is taken care of. I do my best to be a good mother. I get him up everyday, I try to snuggle with him in our bed for at least a few minutes before starting my day. It helps me cleanse and recharge myself for another day to get some time alone with him each day. I make sure he is fed everyday, if he gets sick I make sure he gets the proper medical attention, if needed. I make sure he gets a bath and is read to every night, both Tom and I do.
This morning we snuggled with his head on my shoulder, I laid there and hoped that moment would never end. He is getting so big, so fast, he is 14 months old now. It feels like yesterday it was Columbus Day 2011 and I was giving birth to a beautiful little boy. He has this radiant smile that lights up a room. My Grandma Neal said he is such a sweet boy and doesn't know how I got such a sweet thing.
I feel sad that many parents are going to be laying their children to rest this week. I hope this is something I never have to do. I know they are hoping they did have to. This world is full of some evil people but we have to remember that there are a lot of good people as well. I know that I can't stop everything that may hurt my son but I will sure try to. That is what parents are supposed to do.
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