Depression

I have been struggling with depression for about 5 years now. Some days I have a hard time justgetting out of bed (which is no good when you are a mom) and I get really upset over small issues. I realized something the other day, before my depression I got up in the morning and did my hair, makeup. Now I don't really take that time to take care of myself, I have noticed in the last two months that I really haven't taken the time to take care of Nicole. I am setting up a couple of goals for the new year to hopefully prevent my depression from coming more often than not.

1. Get up early enough in the morning to do my hair and put makeup on.

2. Start exercising again.

3. Eat healthier, take the time to make healthy choices.

I know I am going to have my bad days but hopefully by taking better care of myself those days will farther and farther apart.

Snuggles with my Baby

I had a weekend of sadness. I read, like so many of us did, a lot about the shooting in Connecticut. I am so sad about the loss of so many individuals, many of them children. My first thoughts are directed toward my own child, Jackson. How can I protect him from all the evils of the world? How can I make sure he is always safe? I guess that answer is going to be, you can't. I can't always be there to protect him and make sure he is taken care of. I do my best to be a good mother. I get him up everyday, I try to snuggle with him in our bed for at least a few minutes before starting my day. It helps me cleanse and recharge myself for another day to get some time alone with him each day. I make sure he is fed everyday, if he gets sick I make sure he gets the proper medical attention, if needed. I make sure he gets a bath and is read to every night, both Tom and I do.

This morning we snuggled with his head on my shoulder, I laid there and hoped that moment would never end. He is getting so big, so fast, he is 14 months old now. It feels like yesterday it was Columbus Day 2011 and I was giving birth to a beautiful little boy. He has this radiant smile that lights up a room. My Grandma Neal said he is such a sweet boy and doesn't know how I got such a sweet thing.



I feel sad that many parents are going to be laying their children to rest this week. I hope this is something I never have to do. I know they are hoping they did have to. This world is full of some evil people but we have to remember that there are a lot of good people as well. I know that I can't stop everything that may hurt my son but I will sure try to. That is what parents are supposed to do.

Collection of Thoughts

When we have an experience that we find painful or difficult, and are either unable to cope with the pain, or just afraid of it, we often dismiss this emotion and either get busy by exercising more, drinking or eating a bit more, or just pretend it hasn't happened. When we do this we don't feel the emotion and this results in what is called repressed, suppressed or buried emotions. These emotions remain buried within us until we release it by bringing the emotion up and feeling it. Keeping emotions repressed and buried for a long period of time can cause fatigue and depression. Commit today to become emotionally healthy by learning about your emotional self and do whatever it takes to release buried emotions. Be prepared, this is often an uncomfortable and difficult journey when you begin, but I promise, once you’ve gotten over the first few hurdles, it's worth the effort :)

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In life you will face lot of challenges and uphill battles that will try to stop you from achieving your dreams. Difficulties will arise that will make you stumble but don't let those difficulties make you crumble. Just be strong. Trials will knock you down but you can choose to get back up.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------   There comes a time in your life, when you walk away from all the drama and people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad, and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right, pray for the ones who don’t. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is a part of life, getting back up is living.   --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------