Perseverance

Life doesn't deal the hand you want, it deals the hand you need. Whether you believe it, accept it, want it or not, it is what it is. Be content with your own hand. STOP trying to rush life, just let it happen. Learn to live out the life dealt. What will be, will be!

Perseverance means staying in the fight and refusing to give up. It empowers you, so you should stop feeling like a victim of circumstances. It builds your confidence that becomes a tool you automatically use. Someone said the nose of the bulldog is slanted backwards, so he can keep breathing without letting go.

Beginning weight~ 246 pounds

Current weight~ 231 pounds

Goal weight~ 160 pounds

15 pounds lost, 71 pounds to go.

Weight Loss

So today I am starting my weight loss plan.

-No fast food
-No carbonation
-No candy/sweets

I am going to start exercising everyday; riding my bike, running walking, doing some active for at least one hour everyday. I have done this before and I can do it again. Last time I only lost 50 pounds and this time I am going for 85 pounds. I am pumped and I know it will be hard but it will definitely be worth it in the end.

You've got to say, I think that if I keep working at this and want it badly enough I can have it. It's called perseverance.

I am starting today @ 245 pounds.

Let's go!!!

My Project

Closet

Door

Hole in the wall

Window

Princess!

I am redecorating my bedroom. I cleared everything out, today I took out the carpet and blinds. I cleaned the dust off the walls. And I put putty in all of the holes. Tomorrow I am hoping to sand and clean the walls some more. Then tape everything off so I can start painting. The wall with the window will be one color and the rest will be another. Inside the closet and inside the window area and trim will be another. I am really excited to do this project. It is giving me something to do and keep my mind busy. I am hoping to have it done before my family gets home from Hawaii.

Drifting

I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.

I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.

You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.

I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.

For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.

Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?

It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.

I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.

It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.

Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?

Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?

Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?

Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow

My family is in Hawaii right now, I thought that this would be awesome. But I come to find that I find my greatest strength in my family. I really miss them, this has been a very emotional time for me. But who knows where life will lead me, I only need to trust in God and know that things will work out and these are the trials I have been given to shape me into the person I am to become. I am thankful for my family and I know that friends may come and go but they will always be there for me. And I love them.