Kamberlie

If anyone knew me growing up and even well into my 20s that I loved to babysit. People in the ward would call me "The Nanny" because I always had someone's child or children with me. One family was the Binks, I loved their children. While working at Sutherlands I would babysit for Kim while went to the gym. I babysat their 3 children Staley, Kamberlie and Stockton. I love them!! They were little balls of energy that I would brighten my day. One day on October 8, 2007 everything changed. I remember I had just bought a new bed frame for my room from Kmart and I was putting it together and my mom came in and said, "Nicole, Kamberlie Binks is missing while they were at Lake Powell, they aren't sure what happened at this point." That was a Monday, for days I read online and watched news reports that they were looking for her in the water and possibly someone took her. I prayed for her safety and wanted her to be okay. That Thursday, October 11, 2007 I heard they located her in Lake Powell, drowned. My heart stopped. She was this blonde spunky 3 year old and I couldn't believe she was gone. I had just watched the kids not too long before. Going to her funeral was so surreal, I couldn't believe this little Angel was no longer with us. Seeing her in her little white casket and her heartbroken family made me so grateful for the opportunity to get to know her.

I was watching this video today and I cried and cried. I keep thinking about Jackson, he turns 3 this year the same age as Kamberlie when she passed. I can't imagine the hurt the Binks have gone through and hope I never will. My son is everything to me. A few weeks ago he almost got hit by a car and I was so upset with him and myself. I would have been devastated if something would have happened to Jackson. I wish that she could have had more time on earth with her adorable brothers and meet her little brother and sister. I just hold onto my little man so tight and know that life is short. I hope the Binks know how much I think about them and how much I look up to them.